Unpredictable, Confusing and Intrusive
Similar to the feeling you get when you give a big presentation at work, or asked someone you liked out on a date. I have dealt with a lot of unusual experiences that I am assuming come with the business, the artist trying to make it in a competitive world.
I am inspired by other artists, by galleries, exhibition, the media, and the world around me. I do my research before I post, create, and do anything. I don't want to step on toes, and I don't want to take anything that's not mine. I try to remain professional when sharing or working with anyone. I believe it's popular artist, work, professional etiquette. I will always remain respectful when it come to others and their success, I am getting used to what others perceptions of me. It's easy to "say" I don't care what others think, don't get me wrong I am confident. *Side note -might even be a little cocky when I get with one of my BFF's because we both are sure and know we deserve it! Back to the topic, though, I am still learning my ground and how this game works.
I can't handle people who don't want others to succeed, especially someone who is facing the same cultural oppressions you are. You know my struggles, we suffer the same historical trauma. Everyone is trying to succeed, and I am an advocate of empowering those around you.
I can handle criticism, but I can't handle hatefulness. I can't handle mean. I can't handle those who don't have anything positive to say but want to share it anyway and put you on blast. I take it with a grain of salt now, because of my lovely support system, but OooF! That first one hurt. It blows my mind, like the thought process of being mean - like you have to take time and effort to do so. Gah! Then, I have to get all Intro to Psychology and figure out who this person is and why? Double Gah!
I am not even close to being famous, but it makes me feel some way for Kylie Jenner, who I love! Her constant critique would overwhelm me! I think I'm getting a pressure headache just thinking about it. It started with appropriation in my own community, then a random mean comment (judgment of being the right kind of "native"/questioning my "nativeness"). Then passive aggressive emails regarding using certain social media terminology, and now not knowing whether to share materials and process tips due to the sensitivity of others. There will always be challenges in anything you do. If it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you.
I must say my "8 - 4:30" gig is easy to turn off, but the anxiety of an artist, my passion, the over analysis not messing up what I love to do, is hard. I just want to share what has been on my mind.
Today's lesson just Let It GoOOOooooOoo.
I can't handle people who don't want others to succeed, especially someone who is facing the same cultural oppressions you are. You know my struggles, we suffer the same historical trauma. Everyone is trying to succeed, and I am an advocate of empowering those around you.
I can handle criticism, but I can't handle hatefulness. I can't handle mean. I can't handle those who don't have anything positive to say but want to share it anyway and put you on blast. I take it with a grain of salt now, because of my lovely support system, but OooF! That first one hurt. It blows my mind, like the thought process of being mean - like you have to take time and effort to do so. Gah! Then, I have to get all Intro to Psychology and figure out who this person is and why? Double Gah!
I am not even close to being famous, but it makes me feel some way for Kylie Jenner, who I love! Her constant critique would overwhelm me! I think I'm getting a pressure headache just thinking about it. It started with appropriation in my own community, then a random mean comment (judgment of being the right kind of "native"/questioning my "nativeness"). Then passive aggressive emails regarding using certain social media terminology, and now not knowing whether to share materials and process tips due to the sensitivity of others. There will always be challenges in anything you do. If it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you.
I must say my "8 - 4:30" gig is easy to turn off, but the anxiety of an artist, my passion, the over analysis not messing up what I love to do, is hard. I just want to share what has been on my mind.
Today's lesson just Let It GoOOOooooOoo.
Thank you,
I truly appreciate you and your support.
