Unpredictable, Confusing and Intrusive
I can't handle people who don't want others to succeed, especially someone who is facing the same cultural oppressions you are. You know my struggles, we suffer the same historical trauma. Everyone is trying to succeed, and I am an advocate of empowering those around you.
I can handle criticism, but I can't handle hatefulness. I can't handle mean. I can't handle those who don't have anything positive to say but want to share it anyway and put you on blast. I take it with a grain of salt now, because of my lovely support system, but OooF! That first one hurt. It blows my mind, like the thought process of being mean - like you have to take time and effort to do so. Gah! Then, I have to get all Intro to Psychology and figure out who this person is and why? Double Gah!
I am not even close to being famous, but it makes me feel some way for Kylie Jenner, who I love! Her constant critique would overwhelm me! I think I'm getting a pressure headache just thinking about it. It started with appropriation in my own community, then a random mean comment (judgment of being the right kind of "native"/questioning my "nativeness"). Then passive aggressive emails regarding using certain social media terminology, and now not knowing whether to share materials and process tips due to the sensitivity of others. There will always be challenges in anything you do. If it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you.
I must say my "8 - 4:30" gig is easy to turn off, but the anxiety of an artist, my passion, the over analysis not messing up what I love to do, is hard. I just want to share what has been on my mind.
Today's lesson just Let It GoOOOooooOoo.
I truly appreciate you and your support.